Johnny got accepted into Berkeley!!! My boyfriend is really a genious and I am so very proud of him. We got the news last Thursday and ever since then my emotions have been going insane. I'm so scared to leave everything I know.. but I'm so excited to experience such a cool place as San Francisco. We are planning on living in Walnut Creek and getting a cute little house (if it doesn't cost to much to rent.) We've already talked to the puppies about being NorCal dogs for a couple of years (yes we explain things to our dogs.) I am ready to go! The only thing is, my fear and anxiety seems to hold me back from realizing the full excitment of the situation.
I'm afraid of the unknown. I have really bad anxiety attacks that come from being so fearful of the unknown. Yes, I am a free spirit, and yes I enjoy moving around... but to be uprooted from everything and everyone I know is scary to me.
Fortunatly, a couple of awesome people at my work hooked me up with a job in San Francisco so I can stay with my current company. I talked to the lady up there about the opportunity. She said she is going to offer the job to some of her current admins first, but she will let me know the beginning of next week. I HATE WAITING! I am so not a patient person, and when I want something done, I want it done NOW! I hate waiting on other people! It might be a good thing though... I need to realize again how to trust God with everything and not just what I want to give him.
I've been praying about this move and for God to take away my anxiety attacks over it. I think it's working! I get a little fearful still and feel like I'm going to have one, but it hasn't happened in a couple of days so hopefully I can breath easy for a while.
Johnny and I are flying up on May 22nd (thank God we're flying cause I don't think my anxiety could handle that car ride!) to look at places and, if this lady tells me next week the position is open, I am going to go to San Francisco to interview and visit the office. I am so excited and I hope the transition is fairly event free!
Please pray for Johnny & I and a smooth transition to our new life. I am soooo excited!!
Keep your fingers
Thursday, May 7, 2009
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