I'm having a hard time right now. Johnny's Grandma (Valerie aka Lala) passed away on Monday night. It's hard to see him in pain when there's nothing I can do to fix it.

I know it sounds weird, but I feel like something inside me has died. The second I watched her pass from this life to the next, I felt different. I can't shake this feeling and I can't describe it either. I wish that I could fix everything... Johnny's family, Johnny and me. Maybe it will just take time...